Catching you up!

So, a lot has happened since I last posted. I'm such a slacker on here.

On September 13th I found out that I am pregnant. Here's the blog I posted on myspace about it (just to save me some typing).

"If you don't know already, we are expecting a baby. This will be our third child, and he/she will be due May 25, 2009. We are SO excited!! We are hoping for a baby girl, but praying for a healthy baby. If we have a boy this time, I'm just destined to have boys, but I love them.
For all of you that have nothing to do but to talk about people, this was a VERY planned baby! We've been planning this baby for over a year, and it just so happened that we got pregnant exactly when we wanted to. We prayed for a May baby because there is not a lot of family birthdays in May. And, we didn't want it close to our other children's birthdays. Plus, I get to be pregnant during the COLDEST time of the year!
Now, all you people out there who just had babies, before you take something to Goodwill, will you please check with me first. We have a ton of stuff, but will be needing some stuff, and what better way to get it than hand-me-downs. Hopefully in January, I'll let you know if I need boy or girl clothing."

Then on October 23rd, I was having a little spotting and got worried. I called my doctor and they wanted me to come in to have things checked. First place they sent me was ultrasound, where we found out this....

"Just wanted to update everyone on the "baby" situation. I went to the Dr. on Thursday b/c I was having some spotting. Went into ultrasound, and found out that we are expecting TWINS! I am SO excited to begin this new adventure.
Just for the record, because I've already been asked....no, we were not on ANY fertility treatments or pills. We got pregnant the first month we "tried" and ended up getting twins. Also, twins do not run in my family at all, they run on Jason's side a couple times, but to be honest I don't know why this happened other than God just had this planned for us. "

I am so excited about babies. I'm a little nervous how I'm going to homeschool still, but I know this is all in God's hands and he wouldn't give me more than I can handle. Please keep us and the babies in your prayers.

I've been tagged, YAY!!!

I was tagged by Charissa

A. Attached or Single? Attached
B. Best Friend? Jason
C. Cake or pie? oooo, cake, chocolate on chocolate
D. Day of choice? Friday, I don't know why
E. Essential item?chapstick, hand sanitizer, hand lotion
F. Favorite color? depends on the day, today, HOT PINK
G. Gummy bears or worms? um, neither
H. Home town? Fuquay Varina, NC
I. Favorite indulgence? I've been sitting here for 5 minutes wondering what do I indulge myself with, I think I need to find something to give me some me time
J. January or July?January, I love cold weather
K. Kids?Drew and Matt
L. Life isn’t complete without? Family and Jesus
M. Marriage date? September 20, 2003
N. Number of brothers and sisters? 1 sister, 1 step sister, 1 step brother, 2 brother in laws, 2 step sister in laws, one step brother in law, and 1 sister in law
O. Oranges or Apples? Oranges
P. Phobias? Spiders
Q. Quotes? "I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody. " --Bill Cosby
R. Reasons to smile? life and love
S. Season of choice? Fall
T. Tag 5 people: If you read my blog, I tag you, I have no idea that any one looks at this
U. Unknown fact about me? I LOVE MY JOB
V. Vegetable? Sweet Peas
W. Worst habit? picking at my fingers
X. X-ray or Ultrasound? I've had both
Y. Your favorite food? unfortunately, sweets
Z. Zodiac sign? Pisces
(Another) Z. Which zoo animal is your favorite? Polar bears and sea lions

I am SO blessed...

This week has been a real Devine week. The Lord has spoken to us in so many ways, about this silly car. First of all, we are getting rid of our 2007 Honda accord that sips on gas to buy a SUV. We are actively "trying" (which I really hate saying because, well, we really know what that means) to have another baby. Three car seats do not fit in the back of the Honda easily. So, anyway...Jason just had this feeling we needed to sell it, and the icing on the cake was when I agreed with him. The Saturday before last I just felt like God was calling me to get rid of this massive mountain of debt. So, we went to Carmax, and they offered us almost what we owed on it (surprising huh?). So, the search began for the perfect, yet cheap, SUV. All doors were slamming in our face, and we still hadn't gotten rid of the car (you have 7 days to sell to Carmax before the offer is null). On Friday, the Lord led me to call the SECU to find out payoff for the car. The same day, the Lord also led me to repost this Craigslist ad. Which by the way, was all God's doing! I didn't even know why I did these things. Well, within 15 minutes we had about 4 people call and want to look at the car. So, the first person that comes puts a deposit on the car and pays full price (about $50 over what we owe). Okay, so here's God one more time. Jason informs me that afternoon, that he had diligently prayed Friday morning that someone would come and buy the car if it was His will. Evedentally it was His will for us to be out of that mountain of debt and less a $300 car payment. We still haven't seen where he is leading us as far as a vehicle. We currently own (no debt) a 2002 Explorer and we're thinking I'll probably drive that and we'll buy Jason something cheap like a truck to drive. It's just so good, that God is so good.

On another note, I started homeschooling this past week. I wanted to get a "head start" since I'll be going back to work next Monday. I wanted to see how our routine will work even though I'm only going back to work Tues./Thurs. Homeschooling is great! Drew loves it, and even complained on Saturday why we couldn't do school. :) It is a little time consuming, and sure it would be "easier" to send him to school, but I love having the time with him and seeing his face light up when he "gets" something.

Random Stressful Thoughts

I think I need to pray more often. I'm so stressed out right now, it's not even funny. I've been at home since June 1, and the boys are not getting any better. They fight non-stop, they hit, punch, scream. It's no wonder I've had an ongoing headache since last week. I just don't know what to do. It seems as though my 6 yr old has never got over us having my little one (who is almost 3 now). It is a constant battle. And I go through this guilt complex....why did I have my little one? Will Drew ever get over it? I yell, and scream, and punish (time out, privledges taken away, and spanking as the last resort). Am I crushing their spirits? I want to be a good mommy, but I also want them to take me seriously. I also want them to respect authority, and be grateful for what they have. It is such a fine line. I want to cater to them, let them have everything they want, buy them stuff in over abundance, spoil them, take them places. But I can't, because when I do that, they get ungrateful, unrespectful, and down right rowdy. I am a passive person, and it is so hard not to let them walk all over me. How do I punish in love? How do I be a good mommy, but still set boundaries? How do I have my perfect little family without crushing someone's spirits? I just wanna be their friend, but I've learned, that you can't be mommy and friend at the same time. Another weight I have on my shoulders is that the education of my child is in my hands solely. What if I fail? What if I crush his learning desire by not be the most patient person I can be? I am so worried about this. I've even just considered going back to work full time, and paying for him to be in private school, while I pay for the little one to be in daycare. It would take all of my paycheck, but would it be worth it to have some sanity knowing my child is definitely getting a good education? I know it would be hard to go back to full time work. I've done it before, where you are gone 12 hours a day (with the commute and dropping and picking up at daycare and school), then you come home to a stressful house, trying to get homework done, dinner cooked, baths taken, and Bible story read, so that you can make it to bed before midnight, in order to start all over the next day. And the weekends are not filled with quality family time either, they are filled with the week of overflowed dishes, grocery shopping, laundry, and other errands that didn't get done. Let's face it, there is no easy outlet. I guess I am expecting life to be a little easier. I just feel like a failure on auto pilot all of the time (if I can't do anything with them to correct the behavior, just let them do it, and ignore it). I am guilty of putting them in front of the TV, just to keep them from fighting. Because, if the TV is on, one of them is ingrossed in it at all times. That keeps them away from each other. I can't wait for school to start (preschool that is, where I work), for us to get a solid routine. I will also put Drew in organized sports this fall, to keep his focus. I guess, if I can just hold on a few more weeks, we will be back to our routine of busy, busy, busy, and maybe we can fix some of the behavior problems, since I think some of them now stem from being bored. We just can't afford to go somewhere everyday (considering going somewhere usually involves spending money). I hate to be outside when it is so hot, and the mosquitos are horrible here. I've gotta get some structure here. Ok, well enough venting for me. I guess eventually they will get on track, hopefully before they are 20. Hopefully by that time, they will be able to tell me thank you for being a good mommy, and teaching them how to appreciate things, and respect people.

My baby is 6!

So, today is the 6th birthday of my Drew man. For some reason, this makes me sad, and happy. I try not to be sad. But, 6 years ago he was a tiny infant and now he is a big boy making decisions of his own. I love him to pieces, but sometimes I just wish he was that baby again. However, I am VERY happy to have had the past 6 years with him. He is SO much fun! We've had many, many good times in the past 6 years. I guess time does fly when you're having fun. He is going into the 1st grade, reading, writing and overall loving life. He loves the outdoors, fishing, video games, TV, playing with Matt, and just getting downright sweaty (gross!). I'd never been around many boys before he was born. And when he was delivered I remember thinking "what am I going to do with a boy?". He has taught me a lot about being uptight and clean. I love him so much, and I hope to have many, many more birthdays with him in the future. Happy Birthday Drew! I love you!

Getting started

Hi guys! I am starting a blog for you and me to keep up with our busy family. Add it to your favorites, I'm going to try to post often with pics (after I get my USB port fixed). I'll add the first "entry" later today.